F.U.

So these last few days I have been very stressed and what not and I have just one thing to say.

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!

...you know who you are and if you dont then maybe you should take 30 seconds to pay attention...

SO sick of your guys shit...

That is all.

The Shitty Surgery Experience!

So the other day I finally got all my wisdom teeth out and let me tell you, it was somethin' else!

Heres how it went down...

I get up that morning and unfortunately Im already panicing.

Surgery/ teeth are not my forte..Ive had penty of surgeries before and I had braces so obviously pulling teeth isnt new to me...still though.. I never had any smooth sailing experiences...

Like when I was little I had to get 4 teeth pulled to be able to put my braces on.. ya turns out I dont take to the freezing like AT ALL, the dentist didnt care nor was he interested in trying to find another way.. so he just pulled them out..WITH OUT freezing.. I know can you believe it?!!

Anyways so as time is ticking away im getting more and more nervous. Luckily I have an amazing boyfriend who called me and gave me a little pep-talk and tried to insure me that everything was going to be okay. :)

Sadly, everything wasnt going to be okay :( ....

We get to the dentists office and I can hear him talking to another mom about how her daughters surgery...it didnt sound good but apparently it went very routine... FUCK  O_O...

Anyway shortly after that they gave me a form to sign...on it was possible things that could happen during the surgery.. like fracturing my jaw, cutting nerves.. cool shit like that..this made me panic even moree.

Finally it was my turn to go in. I jumped when they called my name, this was not going to be easy or fun and I knew it. I get to the chair and the nurses were nice, luckily, however they still didnt make the situation any better. they started explaining how things were going to go and it freaked me the fuck out. saying that im just gonna be heavily sedated and then there gonna freeze my mouth.. O_O

According to them though I have an athletes heart...?? lol, I know me? of all people right.

Anyway, I kept forgeting to breath so the thing would beat like crazy which scared tthe shit out of me and also didnt help the situation. Then they put this huge breathing mask thing on my nose which was a little intimidating.

At this point im already panicing.. then the dentist comes in with a needle to put the IV in me and I start freaking out. The needle hurt like a bitch and the whole thing started to become over whelming!

 I started crying and I couldnt breath, Im sure if you were looking from above you would think this was some horror movie were they were trying to cut me open and shit against my will..

So they started to up the dosages on everything and one of the nurse was trying to calm me down/ hold me down.

It was just a disaster! I passed right out some time after that, and I was so sedated that I dont remember what happen when I woke up or how I got home...

Here I am when I got home.. haa

The first day was a little crazy. My face was numb, I had been trumatized, and swollowing pills was no easy task,  there was blood everywhere. I just remember being soooooo unbelieveably thirsty :( worst feeling ever.

Good thing I have my boyfriend. He was so sweet and tried to make me feel better <3

And now today wasnt that bad I guess... pfffffftttt what am I saying it was complete shit!

Im starving and still thirsty, im weak and to top it off.. I started vomitting... do you know how hard and painful it is to vomt when you just got your wisdom teeth out?!! Let me tell you, its no easy fucking task.

This whole wisdom teeth thing is going to kill me :'(

The Mashed Potatoe

Okay if you read my previous enrty you already know whats going on, if not...go read it because Im not explaining it again.
Last night I was trying to think of things that I would be able to eat
Here are the giude lines to which I must stick to so as to not cause any more pain then there is..

1. Must be in liguid or mushed form
2. Must be able to slide down my throat easily
3. Cant taste like shit! -very important..

So with those rules I set off -well I didnt really go anywhere, I just stayed put because I was feeling reallly dizzy and just made my brain go to work..:)- to look for something to eat because to be honest...bye this point I hadnt really eaten anything over the last 4 days so I needed to get something!!

I got the usual shit like ice cream and yogurt and apple sauce and then... MASHED POTATOES!
I made my mom make me some right that instant and holy balls! It was amazing.

Note to everyone: If you need something to eat and you cant move your jaw and you are sick of ice cream, mashed potatoes are the best thing to have.

They were delicious one, and two they were smooth and soft and creamy.....mmmmm like a dream.
You can have different flavors/kinds to like sweet potatoes... :O, dont even get me started on sweet potatoes! AND mix your apple sauce with themmmm!!! its yummy.

The mashed potatoe will be my life saver for the next 2 weeks

Not So Wise Wisdom Teeth...

So a few days ago my wisdom teeth decided they were gonna try and push there way out..
They were unsuccessful.
So they got the great idea to try and find a new way out...
I have a very tiny mouth and there is not much room in there for anything extra.
This means that instead of them just growing into my mouth and causing pressure on my teeth,
they are growing into the nerves in my jaw...and pushing on my teeth... WTF!
Honestly it is the most painful thing ever! -next to having your ear drum crack..which has happend to me...
Now I ended up going to an emergency dental clinic to get checked out and they said I needed to have surgery within 24-48 hours and prescribed me some T3's..
If you have read my blog previously you will already know that I do not take well to medicine...
Taking these was no exception.
They dont even get rid of all my pain.. they just slow my heart rate down and knock me out and I become all dizzy and shit... NOT FUN!!

So not only am I in extreme pain through out my whole face, the medicine that is supposed to give me some relief isnt even giving me relief...sigh :'(
...Oh..and the best part.... I cant get in to have surgery for another 13 days.... FUCK!

Someone just take me out back and shoot.

Sob Stories

So I have a bone to pick...actually its not really bone picking, its just something that I've noticed that REALLY is grinding my gears...
Has anyone else noticed that EVERYONE who is on any dancing, singing, or talent show all have the same god damn story..
"oh I grew up poor"
"I had a hard life"
"im lonely"
Blah, Blah, BLAH

Now am I being a little mean? Maybe
Am I being a little sour because I too have a shitty life like them and im not on TV talking about it....? Maybe
But I mean honestly... Hearing the same "rags to hopefully riches" story is soo not original anymore.
Its hard to feel sorry for someone or anything because the fucking world is just a wreck
There is no originality on this shit anymore.
So tragic.
Maybe its just me?  I dunno. Even if it is just me... Im fine with being a little selfish and ask for some fuckin new shit.
SOMEONE ROCK MY WORLD PLEASE!

Stairs, Stairs, and More Stairs

So my friend Ariffa and I went and ran some stairs last night..
This is our adventure,

First we had something to eat, I had a pb and plum flax sandwich -which made my stomach hurt, dont use plums before doing activites..bad idea.

Then I was dropped off at Eau Claire were I met up with Ariffa.
Then we set out looking for a kickass set of stairs.
We sorta got lost a bit thanks to construction and ended up taking a detour in a circle for no real reason.
But we power walked through it and got to the stairs!!

-power walking

-the stairss

Might I just add that it was hella hot out last night/day. weeuuuu!!

Then we got down to business, working them legs and getting out hearts pumpin!

-Go Ariffa!

-Go me!!

Now of course Ariffa kicked my ass cause shes so super duper athletic and shit, but I did pretty good in my books!

I ran that shit 4 times.. weeeuu!!

It was awesome.. 

Course, we still had our fun..

300 stairs later....

Lately I have not been okay with my weight and my body shape...
So I am jumping into action.. No more being lazy, no more eating shitty food.
I am kicking my own ass into high gear!
So today after having an amazing day in court -will explain what happen in a minute- I took that adrenaline anddddddd ran up and down 300 stairs...
Well I only had 10 stairs but I ran up and down them 30 times.. which = 300.. :)
FUCK YA IM AWESOME.
There is these double set of stairs near my house that have like a million stairs and I want to be able to run up and down them consistently for an hour.. not fast running but just consistently running up and down.. that is my goal... and I will reach it god dammit!
However, this is gonna take some time for sure because Im fucking DYING from only the 300 stairs.. good god.
I like literally can not walk right now.. its the worst. My poor jello legs.. waa :(

Now about court... IT WENT SO EFFING AWESMOE!!!!
We got the support we were expecting and my dad got dressed down HARD.
It was epic.
Things are gonna turn around now and its great!