Back to Hitting the Books!

Yesterday was the first day of my math upgrading class.

I wanna start off by saying what the fuck was I thinking!!! ...

Seriously I must have hit my head or lost my mind completely when I though I would actually be able to one - do any sort of math work and two - do it at a fast pace and keep up!

Now maybe I am just being paranoid because well I hate math , but also I am 3 years rusty at even going to class never mind a math class - did I mention I hate math.... like with a passion?

I was definitely not expecting to walk into the first math class and get right to work on the lesson(s).

Ya lessons... we did 3 in one class... which I had no idea would happen.

I wanted to cry. By the time I sort of knew what I was doing in the first lesson , we had done 2 other lessons and it was the end of class. 

I totally started beating myself up over it - common brain pick it up for fuck sakes!

I have nice friends though. Ariffa texted me later on in the day and was trying to be motivational..

Text : You are not [going to fail] Confidence! Excitement weooooooooooooooooooooh! Future! Eye on the prize! - I can totally hear how she would be saying all this and trust me she wouldnt be saying it in this exciting "go you go" attitude even though she means it that way... if you really wanna know how she would sound just read the sentence to yourself and pretend the exclamation marks arent there. What she finishes the motivational sentence with proves it - Ill stop now!!

Surprisingly she is super motivating though. I heart her.

Afterwords me and my boyfriend went to get something to eat and register his new car.

Then we headed out to Canmore so he could do a little bmxing. 

We grabbed some awesome pizza from Pizza Construction - sooo yummy - and then headed on home. 

By the time we reached home I was dead tired. 

From waking up so early in the morning then stressing my brain out to its breaking point - beyond repair I think - to driving to Canmore and back I just could not stay awake. 

I had even attempted to right this very blog... but there was no way it was happening.

So with that I just gave up trying to fight off the sleepiness and just laid down and passed right the fuck out.

Which brings me to this morning, waking up to get my brother off to school , make a fresh & yummy banana-raspberry smoothie and seeing my puppy <3

Start to a great morning so far , however , stupid math is still in the back of my head taunting me.

which reminds me I need to finish my math homework for tomorrow - sigh.

Getting Schooled in Molded Fashion

So its back to school starting tomorrow.
My little brother is starting grade 11 and im upgrading my math 30 - hurray :s
I went to do some laundry so that my brothers uniform was clean and I had something to wear to school that wasnt sweat pants and a baggy t-shirt...
What happend though made me so mad I couldnt even blog about it...
okay so we had put some bags of clothing outside for a few days and we forgot about them.... so now half of them are covered in mold because of the rain and then hot weather... ITS FUCKING DISGUSTING!!!!!
But what can you do right?
So now I have like a science experiment in my back yard which consists of big buckets full of water and vinegar with the clothing soaking in them. Afterwards i will put them through my wicked washing machines that are like washing magic and hopefully that works - stay tuned for results...

I would show you pictures but seriously.. I just cant even deal with that right now.. to angry - sigh...

Todays lesson?
Do not leave bags of clothing outside when you live in calgary.... the weather is way to unpredictable.
Now you know / i know what happens when you leave bags of clothing outside in rainy / extremely hot weather...
sigh

Imagine

So I know I am probably not the first person to be writing about this video in particular and I definitely know I am not the first person to be writing about something like this ever but I just gotta past it on.
This video made me burst into tears - seriously I could not control myself , was a little embarrassing.
Watching videos like this makes my heart hurt even more because its like why cant there be more people like the mother in this video... why cant there be more people who adopt little children with missing limbs and such...
Dont get me wrong Im not saying everyone should go adopt someone , but people should learn to be more caring and see the beauty no matter where they go.
Imagine were we would all be in life if we cared and saw the beauty in things even half as much as this lady...
Cheers to this amazing women!

Note : keep lots and lots of tissue near by before watching!

The Rebirth!

I have been racking my brain trying to figure out why I cant seem to "blog properly "

But what really is the "proper " way to blog you might ask?

Good question!! If you find out would you let me know?

...Seriously though, I am so frustrated with my writings that it was making me not want to do it. It felt like a burden...

Then I got wind of what my friend Ariffa was doing.

She was having some issues/ identity crisis with her blog as well which caused her to redo everything.

She gave it a new name, changed the layout, the whole shebang and it looks great!

Ariffa is oh so inspiring and wise. She is my go-to-girl!

Check her out!

... gentleman, did I mention she is single and can cook like no other...

So with that I took it upon myself to also change up my blog and such because well....Im no longer in a crisis or distress - which if you have been following me since the beginning you would know that! - and most people dont wanna read a rant now do they.. so I switched it up.

I wanted something new, fresh, and fun. Something that I could relate to better now that my life is getting somewhere that isnt depressing...

And so "Days of My Life" is born!

And let me tell you, it wasnt easy....

This thing took me alllll fricken day and more patients then I have!

With that, I hope you like it!

Me & My Magic Bullet

So I got me a Magic Bullet a little while ago and just recently started getting really into using it. :)

Ive been making smoothies like crazy.
Tonight I made one that Im really fond of. It was so yummy.
Granted its nothing exciting or brand new and never thought of but still... Im going to show you anyways.

I was looking in my not so very stalked fridge trying to come up with something to make for dinner.

I saw me some eggs and ketchup and I was like okay, egg sandwiches.

Then I saw me some kiwi's and pears and thought... might as well use them.. would hate to let them go to waste..

SO I made the egg sandwich and ate it.

Then I set to work on my smoothie.

Cut me up some kiwi's and pears

Put them in the cup & added some ice ice baby..

Then mixed this shit up

Added some nummy nutella! and mixed that in real good.

Which created this deliciousness <3

M M MMMM. By far my favorite thing Ive produced with my bullet.

Anyone eles out there have a magic bullet with which they created one of there favorite things to eat??

Hit me with some ideas, im all ears !!!!!!

F.U.

So these last few days I have been very stressed and what not and I have just one thing to say.

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!

...you know who you are and if you dont then maybe you should take 30 seconds to pay attention...

SO sick of your guys shit...

That is all.

The Shitty Surgery Experience!

So the other day I finally got all my wisdom teeth out and let me tell you, it was somethin' else!

Heres how it went down...

I get up that morning and unfortunately Im already panicing.

Surgery/ teeth are not my forte..Ive had penty of surgeries before and I had braces so obviously pulling teeth isnt new to me...still though.. I never had any smooth sailing experiences...

Like when I was little I had to get 4 teeth pulled to be able to put my braces on.. ya turns out I dont take to the freezing like AT ALL, the dentist didnt care nor was he interested in trying to find another way.. so he just pulled them out..WITH OUT freezing.. I know can you believe it?!!

Anyways so as time is ticking away im getting more and more nervous. Luckily I have an amazing boyfriend who called me and gave me a little pep-talk and tried to insure me that everything was going to be okay. :)

Sadly, everything wasnt going to be okay :( ....

We get to the dentists office and I can hear him talking to another mom about how her daughters surgery...it didnt sound good but apparently it went very routine... FUCK  O_O...

Anyway shortly after that they gave me a form to sign...on it was possible things that could happen during the surgery.. like fracturing my jaw, cutting nerves.. cool shit like that..this made me panic even moree.

Finally it was my turn to go in. I jumped when they called my name, this was not going to be easy or fun and I knew it. I get to the chair and the nurses were nice, luckily, however they still didnt make the situation any better. they started explaining how things were going to go and it freaked me the fuck out. saying that im just gonna be heavily sedated and then there gonna freeze my mouth.. O_O

According to them though I have an athletes heart...?? lol, I know me? of all people right.

Anyway, I kept forgeting to breath so the thing would beat like crazy which scared tthe shit out of me and also didnt help the situation. Then they put this huge breathing mask thing on my nose which was a little intimidating.

At this point im already panicing.. then the dentist comes in with a needle to put the IV in me and I start freaking out. The needle hurt like a bitch and the whole thing started to become over whelming!

 I started crying and I couldnt breath, Im sure if you were looking from above you would think this was some horror movie were they were trying to cut me open and shit against my will..

So they started to up the dosages on everything and one of the nurse was trying to calm me down/ hold me down.

It was just a disaster! I passed right out some time after that, and I was so sedated that I dont remember what happen when I woke up or how I got home...

Here I am when I got home.. haa

The first day was a little crazy. My face was numb, I had been trumatized, and swollowing pills was no easy task,  there was blood everywhere. I just remember being soooooo unbelieveably thirsty :( worst feeling ever.

Good thing I have my boyfriend. He was so sweet and tried to make me feel better <3

And now today wasnt that bad I guess... pfffffftttt what am I saying it was complete shit!

Im starving and still thirsty, im weak and to top it off.. I started vomitting... do you know how hard and painful it is to vomt when you just got your wisdom teeth out?!! Let me tell you, its no easy fucking task.

This whole wisdom teeth thing is going to kill me :'(